thoughts...

"Another summer day Has come and gone away May be surrounded by A million people I Still feel all alone Just wanna go home Oh, I miss you, you know And I've been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you Each one a line or two "I'm fine baby, how are you?" Well I would send them but I know that it's just not enough My words were cold and flat And you deserve more than that Another aeroplane Another sunny place I'm lucky, I know But I wanna go home Mmmm, I've got to go home Let me go home I'm just too far from where you are I wanna come home And I feel just like I'm living someone else's life It's like I just stepped outside When everything was going right I know just why you could not Come along with me 'Cause this was not your dream But you always believed in me Another winter day has come And gone away Let me go home I've had my run Baby, I'm done"

..... =/

 "Myy heart's a stereo, it beats for you so listen close. Hear my thoughts in every note. Oh oh, Make me a radio and turn me up when you feel love. This song was made for you so sing alone to my stereo. I only pray you never leave me behind because good music is so hard to find. I'll take your hand and hold it closer to mine. Thought love was dead but now you're changing my mind." :D <33

Gonna try and cheer up by talking to Isaiah and Anjiewa.

Mixed feelings about something... I don't quite know how to feel... 

Ok, talking to Isaiah is... not exactly cheering me up bc he's talking about a girl he kinda likes that kinda likes him.... 

Remember my text conversation with Anjie a few weeks back about that:

Anjie: trying not to have hard feelings?

me: trying... it's kinda working... kinda...

lol Isaiah! XD "olo. Well you're musically inclined, so it's ok :)"

me: yay for being a music dork! :D

(yes olo is his version of "lol". "overly. laughing. outwardly.") :D

Omg... when he uses dots, it makes me paranoid!!! >.<

But back to the other thingy... I get off topic way too much. Uhh... yeah.... umm.... uhhh.... mixed feelings. Right... uhh... xD -- Oooo Brantley Gilbert song! -- hehe xD Yeah, idk... wish i knew how to feel about this. It seems easier this time than before for some reason, maybe because i'm not 100% cut off.... but i still don't know your thoughts. *sigh* =(

I think I realized why I have issues talking in person to certain people.... because I talk online to them so much. Seriously. Everyone I talk to in person (who are guys) I'm totally fine with, and we don't talk much online. But if say.... Nick, called me (he hasn't talked to me in sooo long) like before, I'm all quiet.

"Dance like it's Heaven on Earth" <--- remindful tweet by my best friend! Annnnd I love that she knew my thoughts exactly. Because of the dancing especially... took me awhile to be able to see any word associated with "dance" without becoming all sad. Do you get it yet?

I need Snake... his videos will hopefully make me laugh.... hopefully before I cry. Wish I could talk to someone....