Exhausted

So more about last night before I get to today. Played a game on Facebook called Words with Friends. I was in like three games at once! Too funny :) all 3 guys and I won all! XD aww yeah! Fun times with some great people! Hearts galore... If only it would let me. Grrrr xD

School today. Listened to some needtobreathe on the way to school. "I don't know just how much air I will need to breathe when your tide rushes over me. There's only one way to figure out. Will you let me drown? Yeah, will you let me drown? Hey now this is my desire." :)

In gym, this song came on and I thought it for so here are some lyrics. "so many things I'd say if only I were able But I just keep quiet and count the cars that pass by. All my life I've tried to make everybody happy while I just hurt and hide. Waiting for someone to tell me it's my turn to decide." fits me, doesn't it?

Haha autocorrect on my iPod... It practically knows what I'm going to say...

Anyway, gym wasn't too horrible. Except when I DO try to play, I get laughed at. :(

And in history, the teacher called us horrible and conceited people.. That was harsh. :/

Oh yay I found a scratch on my iPod....

In orchestra we played music and I talked to a friend. Told her something. What I don't understand is why I make a joke out of everything when I'm in public. I don't tell people everything I'm thinking... I'm such a wimp lol Ny friends are so awesome for puttin up with me. They say it's nothing but I disagree. All the times I made a friend upset, he forgives me and pushes me to say what's on my mind. He's great; very trustworthy. Very helpful over these past few months.

Also I've been really lonely lately. Like... Yeah. I see people walking around holding hands and being cute. Even people who like each other bit aren't going out... At least they know. Why do I have to be so freakin shy around most guys?! The guy(s) I like don't like me and I just pretend I'm fine with all this. I miss that feeling of being wanted and feeling safe... And the adorableness... <\3 sigh... It's been over 2 years now and the guy that I was with wasn't much of a boyfriend anyway. All we did was hold hands and he kissed my cheek once. We were both immature then.

Anyone wanna loan me $5 so I can buy Anthem Light's new acoustic sessions album? Pweeeeasssseeee?? I'd love you forever!!!!!! :D

More updated later if I feel like it. My iPod is being retarded.

Updateee -- Ok so, home now... Let me just say one thing:
I really wanna scream. Music is helping me right now. But I got a text just a bit ago. It should be fine, but it's not exactly a happy thing. Why does this kinda stuff keep happening though?! Not gonna post the details yet until it actually happens... So if I suddenly got off on a tangent... yeah, just ignore me completely.
I realize lately that my posts have been super long. haha. They won't always be this much to read though.